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Saturday, September 18, 2010

The Way Out (Poem)

Taking my time along the edge



Shifting sand stumble swag and moment to moment hollow smirk



Helium headed extremes



Blankets of bad imagery



Recollections are soured by scolding clocks and empty stares



"That's so sweet" rings semicircles around Corazon til the shattering



Taking my time along the edge



Justifications, justifications



Lies I throw on the pile



Revelation cookie cutter



Assembly line saboteurs



Remorseless murderess and the nights in foreign arms



To be nestled between Schism and One Love is a golden gift



This is not me, ma'am, my embarrassing half is a shade your Blacklight reveals



Like potential heirs on motel duvets



Taking my time along the edge



How I wish the ride was over



I vomited twice before the 3rd Loop



I'm in the subject of a cursive sentence



The predicate is verbose pretention



I am empty



Let me off



Speeding up along the edge



The hilt is black as the tunnel



The tunnel is life



Deceived by length, I ran to the blade



Shimmering in the light as it mirrors the Sun



I see Heaven in the tip



I run quickly along the edge



Violets turn to Roses

Lady Of The Western Lake (Poem)

A smart man keeps his imaginary friends close and his enemies far away



Were I a smart man, I would know the difference



For I was Anti-Arthur for a day

Taking the sword to the Lady Of The Western Lake

On the eve of new beginnings



Prepackaged wine waterfalls, and I waded purple fields in confusion, maintaining a pleasant “catch-up” phase at a high-end home's back

The Queen was North, and the Lady's loves did play



Dispelling rumors in stone, our mutual hater was muted, and we wrote like Lennon/McCartney early on

Eyeball to eyeball



There I was, answering a subliminal, an ad out in a space collectively “mine”, a flight of fancy for ebony

The stopwatch was zero, and we were well acquainted

The stopwatch was one, and two, and I loved the Western Lake

And I swam by routine, and I took two cupfuls, to carry home in a fishbowl



And my imaginary friend was close, and my enemies, far away

Were I a smart man, chapter 2 would be fiction



For the enemy grew close

A jealous and begrudging thing

Claiming love made in China, bought from pride, mailed with dissent

An “If I can't have you, no one can” mantra

And I, a fool

Aspirations of poetry and ignorance of the Shakespeare on my arm



Prying with masterstrokes and shooing the Lady away

Me, removing my armor, and taking East, re/morse each mile



Karma incarnate

A season away from the sun was stupidity's just reward



Karma incarnate

Rowing cross oceans, hiking morning mountains of untrained hounds



Karma incarnate

Squirming at the long and lifeless rats as they squirm back, wishing for the thumbs to write “Food.”



Karma incarnate

Hiding my treasures from a mad young prince



Karma incarnate

Adulterous late nights, anorexic walls and gossip, a fort where knights keep their own while they wage wayward war



Karma incarnate

Where they took my music away, and my soul followed



Karma incarnate

Reminding myself of my days as Anti-Arthur, and the Western Lake by moonlight, where my sword had a good cause, one worth fencing for



Passage West

The lake was there, but my imaginary friend was gone

My enemy mocked,

My armor rusts without nightswimming



So I sit in discomforting regret

And someday hope to be Anti-Arthur again

And take my eager sword to the Lady Of The Western Lake

On an eve of new beginnings

Utopia (Poem)

Come, jilted

With your celebratory wire and your pause

Elegant, cellophane scraping on the window of my memory

Faulty mind pipe leaking hopes for you

(I'm getting it fixed, its a ways off - you understand)



Perceptive leper, and thus the cost is a cliche'd pun

But I build my utopia to keep you out

Imagine the Lil Rascals affair

Occult, Conspicuous, Splendid and Plenty in the Cadbury's Undertones I akin to purple and gold

London and beautiful back gardens



Envisioning Bergholt Crescent simplicity

The sub zero sun, unsolicited neighbor, and double decker with Mom over the Troll



Hallelujah, as I let Shaun William Ryder do his thing

He was when I was unaware of free



And Dad helped a Chameleon and a Slave and a Sellout and a Messiah, the Newest (at the time) Angelic Androgyny to dream of Rio, and the Blind Land Ma was one-eyed enough to lead



My Checkerboard frets make muses of Stub Kryptonite as he lay out wounded in all ways by a precarious love



The symmetric contrary reminder of a conch brilliance before velvet, and the curtain I'll bow behind technically



Yamaha Moccassin, and Stiched Bottle Dam, Meager Distractions and One Love, point South



The fake wolf Adam pets, in the Dairy Queen's Courtyard, as the white flag of "mah nigga, mah nigga" ad nauseum sits on a dull roar for him

You took me home remorseless, keeping both wheels, and I pawned you off on Phys Ed when you weren't looking



But we saw the Lighthouse!

We Saw The Lighthouse through our foggy, our weird and typical



We Saw It through still standing vertigos



We Saw It through Bill Hicks



We Saw It through Cate Blanchett's best role the Academy missed, a folk singer I like



We Saw It through her dismissive, matching purples, and escape route knowhow, her daggers for me, and her fuel for God's Gift, on his Blond throne in gentrified (so we thought) Santa Monica

We Saw It through her fickle lens, fixated on the closet door, the BFF, and the Flip Cup Guru



We Saw It as he walked Venice for bemused wtf and Jim wept



We Saw It through goofy grin 2pm mornings, microwaved coffee, a mother who fakes a smile, and 2 dogs who never have to



We Saw It through the beer goggle glass of This Heightened Consciousness



... I found the line of silver on the corner underneath the Palms, inescapably home, and wondering, just like you said, and the Guru laughed, missing the tender implications, were that loyalty begat loyalty, and the knowledge that a rock keeps you upright, and the unfamiliar tingle of faith in permanence

If only you'd seen what I'd seen - your mind would change irretrivably, and my hand holding yours would mean comfort alone



There were things to do, fungal activities, and a multitude of explorations, possibilities of a night beyond "Not Bad"



Work required to surpass the awkward explanation for a girl who can't kiss



Work required to get out the Frogs' Skin on my own



Work required to build my utopia, one I build with saltwater in my eye



I built my utopia to keep you out, and listened for a bang on the wall

Dumb (Poem)

Abysmal aficionado

Winding your clocks for you

Stealing your smile and wearing it better

Insult/injury emporium promotional sale - stay for your formative years, the bitterness is free



Stay, and we'll put our culpable glass on you

Try not to look responsible, you'll stay young forever

Empty your pockets, not your chest

Don't let her know she's your universe, bank left at the cannery, plan for the 3rd wedding, carry out the 1st finally



Mercy's a four letter word

Why? There is no 'why' - if there were, it would be a five letter word



Do you want to see her?Then we know how to torture you

Brand new pictures with a grin you've never seen

Endless proof, honest dislike, underwhelmed as usual

Self doubt and drink, drugs, volume and shaking fists

Coming to terms with inferiority



Dream a little dream

A fairness catalyst paying it forward with good nature

Hope swims heavy in the head of the wise eternal

God conductor push cart fate to good ship end, index tapping, knots from nothing, loose ends gone at the end of the line



Queen

Pious absorption of flesh in the draw

Flesh somehow bolder, illustrious, luminous, grander than any

Narcissist and the patient adjacent

Waiting

Good dog



Nausea hypochondria hyperventilation hypertention aches pains stings left side numbness

Whenever we're a third through four, but that and chocolate are the choices

The fog won't leave me ugly

Outside



Missing

Not aiming right, not aiming enough

Yearn, ow, walk it off

Or a totally understandable, natural emotion

We laughed to ourselves

The concept of it being all illusion



Hollow chest - you gave it to her, didn't you?

Dumb motherfucker

Evening Prayers (Poem)

Beg in bedsheets, kids.



New worlds are seeping out the light crater in star proximity disco ball brilliance bite size swarms of grandiose confetti in the black.



Our hero shifts in Camry discomfort, rickety gold-plate wall ghettos, adjacent to home/hell duplex compounds.

Neighbor.

Neighbor to family - one hustler of strays, blinking driven snow aryan irises and being proud, forging a deal and breaking a promise, to get the gold plated rickety fed and returned in time to soften the blow of destitution.

Neighbor to friends, aspiring to family and filling vacancies while the gold plated rickety re-rickets under our hero the wheelman.

Neighbor to foes, kin for a certain tag, blowing their ride and trying to ricket the rickety out from under you.

Neighbor to mentors, conspicuous as hey look, turning all the wrong heads towards the golden rickety ricketing in the molten light.

Neighbor to the Montague to your Capulet, a capsized lawman, lending the initial bills, before those golden plates wobbled like Jah; bad experiences sitting awkwardly in his stomach as he takes the shit side of karma into his own hands, crispy cautionary, as karma christens herself “melanoma” just for him, and leaves him rickety as your home.

Neighbor to closeted Reagonomics conspirators, lamenting the eclectic tones in the sun, dreaming in three garish colors that make themselves known outside your rickety golden cave, walking away from explosions and getting the girl, grunting in slow motion aviators reflecting collateral “necessity” in head-shake grimace deluxe packaging while they're in the back, overpricing something over at Goodwill for a Lincoln.



Beg in bedsheets, teens.



Take the best parts with you, and eat!



Eat! Jovial things, take handfuls and ache from fulfillment, hold your sides in satisfaction.

Eat for those sans mouth post grand mal while looking for height.

Eat for those empty in even their walled up exteriors.

Eat for those without hands to hold forks and so clutch molars about fumbling silver but ever fail at shoveling without inertia.

Eat for those who hug the linoleum before asked, overeager to please, pleasing no one.

Eat, and pay, for those who steal their bread. You may have met them. I have, and am not the company I keep yet (thank Christ).



Beg in bedsheets, worker bees.



Learn from the Camry Cottage.

Learn from the bumper-stickered case, and the semi-Schneider acolyte technician tool therein.

Learn from God's Gift, a rain puddle near my lake.

Learn from the Ranch, where they herd Ports, and Ports alone.

Learn from the Guatemalan who takes dick and gives nothing while she vends for those who only buy the best.

Learn from the empty doll-house, the house girl lonely.

Learn from a whore.

Learn not to give her housewife lessons; even the 101's are beyond her, so learn other quick routes from Calablackless to Universal.

Learn that you can't ask the 150 driver to stop at your corner.

Learn you're not special, you spoiled brat.

Learn proper translation of stream-of-consciousness.

Learn to be a handful; thusly, you'll get me, only (a handful get me).

Learn to play on words without stamping your feet, lest the words go away.

Learn from Arleta, the bazooka tooth on empty, the crystal clarity, the sleepless summer and a 1000 full pages of poetic indiscretion and obtuse rhyme schemes that I still can't wrap my satin head around.

Learn from prose prayers, the paupers' ghostwritten love notes to luck, to sky, to green and blue, keywords on Google, hoping luck and sky show up, clicking Images, trying to see their faces.

Learn from Search Engines that come up empty.



And love.

Learn about love before you learn from it.



Beg in bedsheets, men.



We're going in.

Friday the 3rd (Poem)

This lake has leeches

Charming, chewing

Dig for gold and gulp and get your fill



Outnumbered by nosferatu

Soul sucking, rather die than ride or die

Wait your turn

Long, long line



Succubus Indian Giving good Lincolns from Machart Mobiles

Magnum opus opiate hopes rope a dope us

Mid name James recycle nooses, or at least considers

Drastic respite



The best of us need rest

The worst lay down



Holy are the ones of rigid will

Holy are the ones of pushy conscience



Verdant emerald fields, shimmering in bundles, crystalline coats

Sequins on tree stars

Evaporating dry leaf

Jackets of sugar on shoulders of all

The insecurity of the heart

In OG Bullet Time



Damned be a temptress

Mandrake mandible beauties

Mounting patience and pincer of thighs

Reduction, sans chaos

That will grow like hair

Knots and tangles, and jealous Nubians



Friday night Springsteen operettes

Open roads, dreams, and soulful eyes, ahead

Casting tanzanite glare on tomorrow

Phil Spectral oversweetened melodramas



We're Keats' few fine plays, you and I

Tangible in twilight, true in the haunting

Happily possessed by a romantic

Blowing kisses at the enemy



The Foe!



Foe to kindness!



Foe to preservation, lamenting an honest protector in an ulterior alley!



Foe to herself!



Foe to alacrity, to regenerative cells, that which lets a heart heal quickly!



Foe to good nature, sapping Leo of loyalty, priests withholding the cross, and the last vindication!

Priests withholding Heaven!



Give

Up the Ghost, Into Greed

Priests put the withheld cross over "Of Yourself", the Give you don't get when you get but don't give

You get what you give to karma



In that, you are Foe to your future



September begins grim

Friday the 3rd, 2010.



Boots to bear the 4th. This lake has leeches.

Monday, August 2, 2010

This Modern Empire - Love Is The New Black

Coldplay, Fix You. Death Cab For Cutie, Soul Meets Body. Talib Kweli, Get By. The Verve, Lucky Man. That song Lupe Fiasco put on a Twilight Soundtrack.
These are songs I almost like.
Some say almost doesn't count. Those people have never heard NYC by Interpol – everything was awash in melancholia so beautiful you'd halfway expect virginal elf babies to have cried every drop of it – then Paul Banks cooed something about the subway being a porno, and the fact that subways reek of urine made me wonder what kind of porn Paul Banks watches.
Have you ever heard a song that went the wrong way once in its chord progression and made you deduct points? Things were flying smooth on that 5-hour flight, everything was great for the first 3; the movie was Judd Apatow, it was censored but you didn't care; attendants came quick as you humanly could press the button, with your drinks, before you could ask for them; the in-flight meal was steak, and was prepared by someone who actually ate red meat; hell, y'got laid in the bathroom. THEN a half hour of turbulence left you shaking for the rest of the flight, and you told everyone it was the worst time you've ever spent off the ground since that time someone who isn't me took mescaline in the Mojave.

It should affect one's summary of the overall product in the way one bad song affects an otherwise good album: scarce mention of the misstep, and a high score nonetheless. Problem with songs are, they're only about 3 minutes; people don't like gray areas in that amount of time, either suck or don't.
The way it realistically affects said song is a considerable drop in the approval rating, rather than a slight one in the case of an album - unfortunately, this often means that an otherwise good or at least TOLERABLE song falls to the wayside, forgetfulness scattering it the edges of the mind.

Love Is The New Black, is one of these songs.

Therefore, I call the modernity of this imperialism into question (fyi: you can't see this grin, but I'm doing it as hard as I can)!!

First, this kind of reminds me of Throwing Copper-era Live. Not necessarily a bad thing; hell, if I could churn an “I Alone” and a “Lightning Crashes” out at the same time, I'd make super-serious, vaguely spiritual videos too.

That solo, though, pure Southern Rock. Or at least English blues trying to ape Southern Rock. And damn if that isn't a sound I miss hearing. In fact, that won back a few of the points this track lost when it took a wrong turn (more on that in a sec).

In itself, that jump's a fairly admirable move - going from melodic indie pop to ballsy rock is a dynamic shift I would LIKE to see Frank Black brag about (and am glad Cobain didn't live to steal, considering his guitar skills).

I suppose the point that it bobs whence it should weave, so to say, is the point where a fuzzed out mini solo segues us into the bridge. There's something strangely twangy about it in that semi-alt-country sense that, in a flash, reminds me of too many Whiskeytown misfires when Ryan Adams shoulda known to edit himself. Its a complete tonal shift, and I understand that it was a chord change, and that was sort of the point, but DAMMIT, if you can't make a chord change fit the overall aesthetic of the song, it runs the risk of detouring someone completely out of the groove! The groove is important, it's the little universe that a song (a good one, at least) creates; it's the illusion of that intimate setting. That segue broke the fourth wall.

Melodically, its lovely; not quite “majestic”, but of course, I haven't used that word to describe rock and roll since the Verve were together the first time.
It maintains a momentum that keeps the listener's attention quite unwaveringly, until that twangy guitar pre-bridge thing made me think Nashville, when I'm pretty sure you're going for Zeppelin, or at least Oasis.
The chorus is sufficiently lighter-worthy, and the refrain at the end is a great touch. And YES, while there're parts I do like of this song, before and after it broke my heart (sniff), at this point, it feels like you're trying to win me back. But I've seen the character flaws now, and as enamored as I am with the rest of you, the back of my mind will always be on that short misstep. I have already subconsciously deducted those points, and put “Love Is The New Black” in the pile of those songs that, for one reason or another, I will always, almost like.

(sigh)...